I like to think I have the perspective to understand that sport is only sport in the end. In the grand scheme of things the result doesn’t actually matter.
I’ve come to understand that although winning races is what I dream of, I used to link it pretty closely to whether I was content in myself.
Now that I look back on my career and see the way I’ve been at times, I wasn’t clear; I didn’t have perspective.
But I like the way I’ve gone about things recently. I understand no race win is your most important contribution to the community.
When I’ve had a setback, and whether or not it hurts, it shows that I’ve been lucky enough to have a passion for what I’m doing. But it doesn’t define who I am or what I bring to the table.
But the fact it does hurt me and I do care is something not to be taken for granted considering not many get to feel like I am now.
I’ve finished the Tour de France before, and I’m determined to do a hell of a lot more than that before my time in cycling is over.
I feel proud that I fought through the setbacks I had this year, and gave everything I had to give. I can’t question that for one second.
I’ve never given so much just to stay in the race. I wanted to quit, I fought, but in the end I wasn’t able to get through it.
I’m the only one who can look in the mirror and answer whether that was everything, and, I can honestly say it was.
I feel very humbled by all the support from everyone that has taken the time to write me a message of support and then check that I’m okay.
Like I mentioned, I am disappointed but not disheartened.
I like the process of what I do. I think I can take it to so many different careers, but for the moment I’m not done with this one.
- Zak Dempster